My phone stopped working, like the keys on my blackberry don’t work at all.
And knowing verizon they are going to sum it up to Water Damage and try to have me the $50.00 which makes no sense since I pay 6 dollars a month for insurance.
And I know for a fact I didn’t wet the phone, both indicators are white and I haven’t wet it.
I am so upset, and then if I have to pay thats 50 dollars out my bank account and then my father will have to put more in so I can buy my books for school.
I hate being a burden to my family like I feel like bad and I didn’t even do anything I just feel so sad.
And then today it was raining, and there is still snow all over the place here, Bridgeport was like in state of emergency due to the amount of snow they got. They got 30 inches the first time and 22 the second time. Today was just so nasty outside. I was all wet and cold.
Then I get on tumblr and see some shit that I really didn’t wanna see. But it’s whatever I am trying not to care. I really shouldn’t even give a fuck, since apparently no one gives a fuck about me.
Then I am all down about other shit and I can’t even pick up my phone and call anyone and talk to them. I am just all alone and really need someone to talk to :’(
I’m sorry I didn’t know that me and my brother were drug dealing gang banging mother beating coke doing baby having and making mami raise them little bastards.
I thought my brother just lived at home and I was going to school, to better myself. So I wouldn’t be a house wife or a fucking doorman. I thought I was going to school to have a career to then be able to take care of this family.
But I’m wrong, I’m just a horrible child. I’m going to hell, I am the devil. I swear my father is a dumbass can 12 o’clock come a little quicker. I need to leave now.
Listen, I’ll prolly never be that guy when I walk by, you lick your lips and you prolly won’t start switchin’ your hips on purpose when you walk by me. And I’ll prolly never be the star of your fantasy and hell, if I was ever in your dream, you’d prolly be passin’ me, over to that big burly guy with his shirt off, with the whip cream and hot candle wax, and that’s okay ‘cause I wanna get to know you.. before I get in you. And my Hindu friend once told me the beauty of karma so I thought if I shared my soul, I might get one in return. In return, I wanna find my connection, not too concerned with affection ‘cause I understand that in time, that will come. But this is for those guys that are looking for a beautiful soul, not a quick fix. For my guys lookin’ for their wives, not these quick tricks. For my understand-that-our-bodies-aren’t-always-going-to-be-strong -enough-for-sex guys. So lookin’ to see if our-minds-still-connect guys. This is for my bringing-your-favorite-flowers, sit-up- and-talk-for-hours-just-to-hear-you-laugh guys. And see, I wanna remember the color of your eyes before I remember the taste of your inner thigh. I want the color of your eyes to be the reason why I open mine and my eyes are open. And they say when you’re lookin’ for gold, simply start by putting yourself in a place where gold is. I’m lookin’ for your soul, so I’ll start back where your soul sits—your eyes. And this is for those guys that understand that to make love, you must first have love. This is for my destiny-is-written-above guys. This is to us needing, loving, and treating you the way a woman should be treated.All the times we loved, and all the times we mistreated our love. All our fights, arguments, and all the times we got heated because it happens, and people do that. Now that we’re past all of that, now we know that love is more than physical, this is to us having the best, most amazing… sex, I mean, I mean, love of our lives. Peace.
Somebody remind me where I am Thats right I’m at home, I’m right where I belong Girl you say you feeling faded yeah me too The smoke is getting blown and the drinks is super strong I know they aint getting money like we do So it’s on. I was looking for the one Now I’m feeling dumb for thinking that it was you I was wrong now I’m back up in this bitch going harder than I did