My roommate is in some dance practice till like 10 but idgaf she annoys me sometimes.
I want someone else. To just be in here with me, to cuddle with me distract me from doing my work. Hold me when I cry myself to sleep. Take care of me when I’m sick. Someone to be there when I wake up and when I go to sleep.
But I don’t so I guess I will just start this stupid paper -_-
And I don’t know who to even turn to. Because seriously I shouldn’t be the one hurting I should be there for him but I don’t know what to say what to do. Ima go see him soon I miss him and all I can think of is he’s gonna be gone one day. He’s only 19 years old and he already has and expiration date. I love him and ima miss him when he’s gone. And everyone says ohhhh you know he has H.I.V he can be like Magic Johnson and never gets AIDS. Magic has money to get the best medical care in the world. My friend is middle class spanish gay male he don’t got money to blow just enough people around to judge him and not try to help him. I just want him to have the ability to live a happy and long life.
I remember when you used to share with me the times when you used to care. When I was your shoulder to lean on.
I remember when I gave you Roxy back. All the work I put in her and I remember when you loved me and made me the happiest girl in the world.
But we always have times like this and it doesn’t last to long. And I always add a “but” to everything you do and I’m always making excuses for you in my mind. Its a Gin&Juice thing, 112 type thing that’s the lie I keep telling myself.
The Bible was written let’s say about 3,000 years ago. In the past however many years, sorry I will not get extremely literal, it is believed by those who follow my relgion and many others that God created man, and each man being brothers, and each man being different.
We live on one earth, and as far as we know we have always lived on one earth. I, myself believe that God created every individual human to be different than another. I believe this through what I’m taught and through what I can see in society around me. It has also been proven that homosexuality simply isn’t a choice. That people are born with their own individual sexualities, so someone who maybe a homosexual didn’t one day just decide they like the same sex but however its just being realized, becoming a comfortable thought, or etc.
God created man, he also created woman. In the last thousands of years we’ve been on earth God’s goal was to make each and every single person individual and different. Though we can be categorized in general ways, blacks, whites, male, female, etc. We were all created by God, and we all exist among one another. Homesexuals: A form of God’s creation. He created them as a new form of different people, a new form of individuals. Just as woman may have been once a new form, or blacks, or whites.
We are all a part of the same family and made by the same God. They bible is thousands of years old. God himself may be millions. Overtime he could not change the bible but he has changed the humans and his creations. He has made all of us out of love, care, and gives everyone forgiveness. Homosexuality is not to be damned, or looked down upon. It, in my opinon, is just another way God has made more special, smart, and beautiful individuals.
We are all the part of the same family, we are all God’s children. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails…And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. Corinthians 13:4-13
Love is everything, everywhere, and everyone. It does not discriminate
This is random I know. But I just don’t like people. Especially people who throw themselves at the first thing that smiles at them like wtf calm down relax and breathe it isn’t that serious. Fake people who will spend forever talking shit about someone and then magically they are best friends like #wheretheydothatat I just don’t understand. And people who do things just to spite others like what is that about. Do things for yourself not for anyone else. Immature people who pick fights and talk shit but will never approach someone and tell them what it really is. Oh and if you stalk my tumblr to then go talk shit about me go away please. Like really far away from me. And by stalk I mean you no longer follow me but yet you know everything I write like why? what’s the point? I hate people.
Even though we on shaky terms right now I still wish you a happy birthday I wish we weren’t how we are now so we could go through with everything we had planned for today well the surprise I had planned as well. Anywho happy 16th birthday beautiful I love you and hope all your
wishes come true.
Last night I was going to rip my roommates head off but that’s a story for another day. But last night I went to watch movies on the field with my friend her roommate her roommates boyfriend and her two cousins. It was cute we were all cuddled up.
There was a party last night but I don’t do house parties in Bridgeport that’s like a no no. So whatever at like 1 I am walking back to my dorm with this girl Kenya and we see this group of people coming towards the door. This guy has a girl over his shoulder her head bobbing all over the place. Like she is out cold. Nigga was like she not drunk just sleeping. When we walk into my building and are waiting for the elevator nigga dead dropped her she aint wake up talking bout she asleep. Then her shirt came up and her titties were all out I was like O_O. Any who they pull the girl into the elevator she’s on the floor and an RA comes smh. Jodi don’t fucking play she made everyone who wasn’t with the girl to get out the elevator and the first words out her mouth were ” how old is this girl”.
I don’t know what happened after that except they called the cops and there were 6 cop cars in front of my building with the K9’s and everything. I don’t know what popped off its either cuz of the girl or the fight at the party that wasn’t on campus.
The worst thing about the girl was she went to the party alone and when they found her she was alone in a dark room of the house. Like god knows what went on in their and I doubt shortiie is gonna remember. I don’t feel bad for her because she should’ve known better then to go alone and she should’ve known when to stop. If you’re drinking to the point where you look dead somethings wrong. And people at the party have been saying she was throwing back shots and she mixed darks with lights. So someone lacing her shit isn’t a theory. All I know is I was on the grass watching a movie all cuddled up and laughing all night long.